10/14/09

Creativity




Can you guess which is mine?...........









I haven't been inspired to write in this lately. Actually, I wouldn't use the word inspired..because I have been, I just haven't been able to find words to describe the things in which I am inspired by. So I feel like just writing about things that have been happening this month, things I've done and seen.
Went to southstreet with Danielle, Chrissy and Jesse. It was fun, but it sort of made true my feelings of displacement from eachother. I am totally not saying this as a bad thing, or claiming I had nothing to do with it...because I did. Something about this summer has changed us, and that is ok. Maybe it was the ending of high school. We have different directions, different goals, and different scheduals. And the fact that Chrissy is 200 miles away doesnt help. But I still had so much fun, and never want to lose them.
Apple picking was today. This has to be a new tradition because I loved it! I was in a bad mood all morning, and I couldn't help but show it all the way up to when we got to the orchards. It's strange how some days you really do wake up on the wrong side of the bed or something, because I had no reason to be moody. But for me, whenever I have a bad day, just one thing can flip it completely. When I was little and would have a bad day my Dad would be like 'cmon, lets go search for firewood at alcyon park!' or my mom would play a game of cards, make me laugh, and boom, my day was saved. Well Justin does that for me as well. Yucky moods don't last long when I'm around him. Anyway, we are going to make a darn good apple pie.
The doctor called and told me a have a lumbar curvature, which is probably the cause of my increasingly annoying leggers. I have no idea how they fix that, but I don't care. I'm so happy they found something, because I was convinicing myself that I was going crazy. Tomorrow I get that egm..which is when doctors stick needles in your legs (that can't be lotioned..ugh! I can't stand not having lotion on my legs! -weird fact) and measure the amount of nerve things or something. Who knows, but I'm not even scared. I can handle it!
Heres some random things because I am in a random mood.
Writing in a beautiful journal in pencil can be liberating.
One simple, ordinary fall night can change you.
I'm unique and beautiful. And have big eyes.
That just felt good.
I worry that if a god exist, he is out to get me.
Vaniella Chai tea is the bestest drink ever.
Creativity is becoming more prominate.
I am certain about my future.
I think my new favorite animal is a snow leopard.





10/2/09

I'm a new soul in a very strange world

There is really just something about October. It's like I have S.A.D (seasonal somethin somethin disorder) but.. in the summer instead of winter. Suddenly the calander on my computer turns to October 1st and I wake up a little happier, breathing a little easier, and feeling a bit more adventurous. I want to dance. I want to go pick apples. And almost all my hope right now is in carving an amazing pumpkin that everyone will be jealous of! (Reedeming myself from last years pumpkin....but we'll just forget about that) I'm starting to like this season of my life as well.