2/13/10

Tie your shoes!

I feel like I'm slowly steadying my feet, like i tripped for awhile and had a hard time getting up. Sometimes 'I don't know's' are legit. I really don't know why the thing, (whatever that may be) that makes me who i am was lost for a short time. Maybe it's just another part of growing up, growing stronger. But I heard birdies outside my window the other day, and nothing can get me down now! PS tomorrow is the first VDAy with my love Justin and I am so proud to call him my Valentine!

<3's to everybody.

2/4/10

I wannnnnt it!



I remember times in my life where I never could see myself getting out of. I really have a hard time seeing past the 'now' of things, and usually my emotions are a spur of just that. "But i want it nowww!"
But, those times are gone, faded in my memory..and often laughable. Really Sarah? You couldn't just wait 3 months? 1 month? a day!?
When I got fired from AMC I really couldn't imagine a day where I wouldn't be ashamed of my self, but lo and behold, it's over, and it's really just a little nitch in my life that I probably will hardly remember in a couple of years. Although this mindset of mine can also cause unneccesary hurt, I think it is a good thing as well. I get what I want. I remember I played DDR at Jens house and I wanted that game. I didn't have a playstation but that did not stop me. I had no income whatsoever so I cleaned my grandmoms windows non stop. I was over there every chance I could get cleaning those darn windows. And eventually I got it. And thats the way I feel about my life. I want to move to Florida. I want to have my own apartment and clean it and make it the way I want. I want to cook dinner and do my laundy. And I want to now.
So I will fight for it.
All the while being wise and listening to the people in my lifes advice.

So some day in the near future I can look back at this and say 'See? Doesn't time and hard work pay off for NOW?"