Now I see

The blinders are coming off my eyes. I was never second best, they were never prettier or cooler or did things better. There was no reason to spend my few teenage years always walking a few inches behind them. Or asking them to do my makeup and hair when I knew I could do it better. I would try to talk like them and wear the same clothes, even though I thought it was ugly. They made jokes about me "she has so much to learn!" when I zipped my sweater up to the top because no...it's only supposed to go three fourths the way, thats the cool way. They used me for themselves to feel supieror.

Now I see though that..

You guys aren't really cool....at all.