Breath

Everythings falling into place and I feel like I filled my lungs with a big breath of fresh air. School starts in three days and I am ready. I'm more responsible this year and I have confidence in myself that I will do good in my classes. I'm finding that being impressed and proud of myself is just as good of a reason to try to do well as trying to gain other peoples acceptance. So, I will work hard, for myself and my future. The last couple years I just didn't care, I only saw the 'now' of things. I guess this is growing up? Speaking of, the Blink concert was great, as was vacation. I can't imagine it being any more relaxing or fun, and the person I shared it with made everything incredeble. I don't want anyone else by my side, except Justin...and I have never been so sure of anything so much in my life. Things just..fit, and I have felt more complete in these last six months then I have ever felt. My heart still goes topsy turvy when I see him, and I know that wont go away. My heart just seems to be full lately, full of hope, excitment, love. I still cry and get stressed and have my little meltdowns, but they are different then they used to be. There's almost more...substance..to them. Like, I'm not numb. There's someone to hold me and tell me it's going to be ok, and I believe it. Being broken sometimes is essential to feel happy, and I wouldn't change that. Things are changing, and I'm welcoming it.