Let me be..

I really just want to wrap myself in a blanket, sit by a window, and read elisabeth elliot right now. Elisabeth is so beautiful.. such a kind, simple woman. She inspires me, and I want to be like her. Her writing speaks to my heart, and even though I am not a Christian anymore, I still want to have faith like she has. Maybe not in God, but faith in myself, the people around me..the world. I love her story. She was always plain, her hair different from everyone else, a gap in her teeth. She was quiet and had a little desk and window in her room where she did most of her thinking. Didn't really fit in with the crowd. She met a guy, fell in love with him, and married him. He was a missionary and went to share the gospel with some tribe who was dangerous, but against all odds became friends with them. They lived their marraige through letters, but she one day recieved a letter that he had been speered to death and found in a river by the very tribe who befriended him. I can't imagine the pain and sorrow she went through...but she was so strong. A few years later she went to the tribe herself, explained who she was, and shared with them. The whole tribe became Christians because of her, her husbands job finished. Now I don't nessecarly agree with what she believes or what she acts upon, but I still can't believe this petite shy girl changed a whole tribe of people and people throughout the world by her boldness and strength. She fought, and through her insecurities and weaknesses altered a generation. I don't have to be cool to change the world, or even just someones day. I know I probably didn't take this story like most who read her books do (go tell people about the gospel!! God did this!) and I'm not even sure she would be happy with the way I took it, but I do know that she has helped me become who I am today. So the next fall night, I will snuggle up with a book on my lap, motivated by a now almost 90 year old woman.


"We can't do everything, but can we do anything more valuable then invest ourselves in another?"